I don’t think it’s a surprise to those who know us to say we’ve been in a bit of a rut. This year has been challenging for us. I personally was in a dark place for a couple months. My anxiety was getting the best of me. I felt like everything was against us. Most of our stresses stemmed from money problems. This has been our slowest year yet and it’s been frustrating. Since we’ve started our business, I’ve struggled with not being good enough. I constantly compare myself to others. I’ve put on weight. I’ve put on a happy face while I felt like screaming internally. We re-branded this year, from The Sweet Spot Photography to Melissa J. Koko film + portrait. I’ve changed the website, my style went dark for a bit. The latest website was a true reflection on how I was feeling. The photos were still pretty, but the site was dark. I’ve tried being who everybody wants me to be and it’s still not enough. The photography world is constantly in a battle of who looks the “most professional”. It’s like you have to fit in this box of pinterest perfection to get business. As much as I tried, I failed. Then I failed some more. I would try show my creativity in my photos, but it wasn’t trendy enough. I felt like I had to dress a certain way to get business. That our house had to look a certain way to make people comfortable in our home office. Well, I’ve been on a little personal journey with Koko to change our perspective. To be happy. To be less formal. To be true to ourselves, which seems obvious, but has been the biggest struggle. With my personality and my pink hair…I don’t fit in the “formal, professional box”. I’m awkward. I have a hard time talking to people but I can connect with people when I’m taking their photos. I love taking pictures. I find humor in everything. I’m not good at sad. So…I’ve re-branded…again. But, I am no longer looking to fit into a box. I don’t care. If you want the formal & professional photographer, there are MANY to choose from. If you want the trendy photographer….there’s a ton of those too…both are not me. I like to have fun. I like to laugh and be silly. I have bright hair and a weird and fun personality to match it…and now, our website matches it. It matches us! It matches the experience we hope you’ll have with us. The sarcastic, fun, awkward, silly, craziness that is Melissa & Koko. Tell me what you think.